Uncovering You 10: The Finale Read online

  “No,” he says. “Please stay. I want you here. I want you to—” He looks ashamed for a moment. “—stay here with me. Just for a little longer? Please?”

  I nod, afraid to speak, trying to get my bearings.

  He takes my hand and leads me to his place by the window.

  We sit. He looks at me in earnest.

  “You look…” He reaches out and lightly brushes my cheek. “You look just like your mother.”

  I blink quickly, trying to dispel the rush of sadness his touch brings out in me. Combined with those forlorn words.

  “It’s okay,” he continues. “It’s okay. I know who you are. I know you’re my Lilly.”

  But do you know I’m real? I wonder.

  “I want to show you something,” he says. “You all think I’m crazy. I know you’re in on this with d..” He casts a surreptitious glance about the empty room, “…with him,” he hisses. “But I think I can trust you for now. Yes, I think I do. You gave me your word. Right? You made me a promise?”

  “Yes,” I whisper.

  “Well, I made a promise, too. To myself. That if I ever got out of this place, away from the voices, away from the cameras, the nightmare, the visions…that I would come and find you.”

  I swallow hard. Is this fully-lucid Paul?

  “Instead, here you are, come to me,” he says. He smiles. “Lilly. My Lilly. I can’t believe you’re not a mirage.”

  “I’m not,” I say. “I’m really here.”

  “But your arm!” He gasps, as if seeing the cast for the first time. Maybe he truly is seeing it—or recognizing its meaning—for the first time. “Tell me. What happened to your arm? Did you fall? From a tree? Your mother always said you liked to climb. You were always the reckless one.”

  “No,” I say. “It was nothing like that. It was something…”

  “You’re graduating next year, aren’t you?” he cuts me off. “I want to be there to see you walk onstage. Eighth grade, Lilly, wow! You’re going to be in high school soon. It’s going to be hard work, you know. There are going to be boys, new teachers, new classes. You’ll become a fully grown woman soon, and I can just see how pretty you’ll be. A vision of your mother. You’re going to break all the boys’ hearts. You will…”

  I let him ramble on. While I just stare.

  He thinks I’m still a little girl.

  I am overcome by an overwhelming sadness. Paul’s lucidity is the illusion. I know what he is now. He’s a functioning schizophrenic. His reality in no way matches what’s really there. He can manage, somehow, on his own, as long as nothing threatens him. He can give the impression of sanity.

  But only when he’s addressing things in the world as he sees them.

  “…math, and science, and social studies. Those were my favorite classes in high school. And you’ll be applying to college before you know it! Have you given any thought to where you want to go?”

  “Dad.” I break away from him and stand. “I can’t. I can’t stay here anymore. I’m sorry. I have to go.”

  “Oh.” A melancholy expression comes across his face. “I understand. But before you leave? May I give you a parting gift?”

  I look to the door.

  “Please?” Paul asks me.

  I glance back at him, and nod. “Yes,” I say. “But then really—truly—I have to go.”

  “It’ll be worth it,” he says. He jumps up. “Please,” he tells me. “Stay. Just stay right here.”

  Then he turns and runs to rummage through a filing cabinet by the desk.

  I watch him. I see his excitement about this “gift”…I sigh and look outside. The sun has barely moved in the sky. I’ve been here only a few minutes. But it already feels like hours.

  “Here.” He startles me by appearing at my side. “Here, Lilly. I made this for you.”

  I look down. He has a blue paper folder in his hands.

  I spy a few loose sheets peeking out the side of the folder.

  Already I’m surprised. I’d assumed that his gift would have been the same sort as the teapot.

  “Take it,” he implores me. “Please.”

  I do.

  “I had a feeling—a hunch—that I might find you here,” he says. “So when the good doctor put me on his plane, I had plenty of time. And I made you…these.”

  I start to open the front cover. Paul catches my hand.

  “Wait,” he says. “I don’t want you to see it when I’m around. I want you to open it on your own.”

  “Why?”

  “I know,” Paul looks down. “I know what you think of me. What you all think of me. You think the voices don’t exist. You all think the things I see are not real. But the truth is: They are as real as you and me.” He meets my eyes. “And that is a fact.”

  Oh, dad. I want to mutter. I keep my mouth shut.

  “You see these.” He gestures at the empty sheets of paper. “And what do you see on them? Nothing. Am I right? No, no.” He shakes his head. “Don’t answer. I know what you’ll say. If you don’t need to answer, you don’t need to sugar-coat the truth. Right?

  “But the truth…the truth, my sweet, young daughter…is that I am not so far lost as you think. No. Don’t say anything now. Appearances must be maintained, remember?”

  He gives me a small, secretive smile.

  “What I see on them…what I see on the sheets…it never changes. Each one has its unique images. Each one has its peculiar patterns. That’s why I don’t need ink when I draw. I already see the lines. They’re already there.

  “The trick, of course, is to makes others believe.”

  He taps the front of the folder with two fingers. “This is my attempt at that.”

  And then, without warning, with another word, he turns away and starts to hum. A second later, he’s back at the wall, playing with imaginary pots.

  “Goodbye, Lilly,” he says without looking back. “I have another feeling I won’t see you again. Please don’t try to prove me wrong.”

  “Bye, dad,” I whisper, and retreat from the distorted reality permeating the room.

  Chapter Six

  In the hall, I find a door to an empty bedroom. I go inside. And lock the door.

  My shaking hands grasp the folder. It feels precious. Even though I don’t want to get my hopes up, something about Paul’s candor moved me.

  I sit down. I take a deep breath. He wanted me to be alone when I opened this. I don’t know why…but I’m about to find out.

  I flip open to the first page, and my breath is taken away.

  There, clear on the page, is the most intricate pattern of lines and swirls and figures and motifs I’ve ever seen. It’s a mosaic. Every inch of the sheet is covered in swirling lines of blue ink. They’re not the random doodles of a lunatic, but the true manifestation of artistic genius.

  Not one of them is out of place. It’s harmonious in its chaos. It’s abstract, flowing, beautiful, psychedelic, art the likes of which I’ve never seen. Just the first sheet—the first sheet alone—could mesmerize me for hours.

  I flip to the next. It’s just as beautiful, just as stunning. But at the same time—so very different. The two of them, side by side? You couldn’t even tell they were drawn by the same hand, were it not for the identical ink.

  This is like savant-level shit here.

  Quickly, I leaf through the rest. They’re all like that. The folder is full of artistic mastery. The care with which the lines were drawn, their perfect placement on the page, the underlying confidence, makes it all…astounding. There’s not a single smudge or correction anywhere...

  Paul said this is what he sees. Not what he creates, but what he honest-to-God sees.

  It’s a glimpse of the world through his eyes. And it’s not the world of a lunatic. It’s the world of a prodigy.

  Seeing this makes me stumble. It makes me unsure. Should I go to Jeremy with these? My dad—my father!—has a talent that should be nurtured. I can’t have Jeremy cast Paul off into the
asylum. Jeremy and I are here together now, fully integrated, fully… ourselves. I have influence over him. He has the resources to let the world witness Paul’s talent.

  The only thing that’s stopping me is the threat that if Jeremy sees these—and if he realizes that Paul is more capable than he thinks—Stonehart might come out. Stonehart, as the man who first caught Paul and wanted to make him suffer.

  I tuck the pictures away. What if Paul is fully there—and he realizes what he does—but he maintains the act of delusion because of that horrifying phrase: Appearances must be maintained.

  Is that his way of telling me that he does pretend? Is pretending the only thing keeping him safe from Stonehart’s wrath?

  Well, I can keep him safe now, too. Then again—I glance at my broken arm, which has started itching beneath the cast—how sure of that can I really be? Jeremy is unpredictable. Even when he has the best of intentions. If I reveal to him something about Paul? That might be just be the trigger to set him off again.

  I look around the room. Are there more cameras here? I don’t know. If I hide the folder here, will Jeremy know?

  Then it hits me: I don’t need to hide anything. If Jeremy is to respect my boundaries, it is enough for him to know that whatever is inside this folder is mine. And I don’t need to share.

  I tuck the secret art under my arm and leave the room. My father, the savant. Who would have known?

  For now, nobody has to.

  Chapter Seven

  I find Jeremy, with Rose and Charles, downstairs in the living room.

  He looks at me. “So?” He asks. “How did it go?”

  I hesitate, glancing at the other two. “Just as you said it would.”

  “I’m sorry.” He stands. “Lilly, I have an announcement to make.”

  “Yes?”

  “We’re leaving. Rose and Charles will come with us. Hugh will stay here.”

  “What do you mean, Hugh will stay here? Doesn’t he have work to get to?”

  “No. This is now his retirement home. He won’t be coming back to Stonehart Industries.”

  “But who will take his place on the board?”

  Jeremy’s eyes bore into me. “You will.”

  I stare at him. “You’re shitting me.”

  “I am not.”

  “But—“

  “I told you once already: I want you by my side. This is affirmation of the fact.” He looks back at Charles and Rose. “I broke the news to them just now, too.”

  Rose stands up beaming. She strides over to me. “Congratulations, Lilly,” she says, offering me her hand. “You’ll do a marvelous job.”

  Charles is next. He takes my hand in two of his. He peeks over his shoulder at the others, looks at me, and winks. He doesn’t say anything. His wide smile is enough.

  He lets go. Jeremy approaches me next. “You’re finally set, ready now, to be my real woman.” A ferocious possessiveness flares in his eyes. “For life.”

  Monday morning hits. My induction to the board.

  “Ready?” Jeremy asks. He looks at me from the doorway of his mansion bathroom. “You look stunning.”

  “I don’t feel stunning,” I mutter. “I feel like a goof.”

  Jeremy comes in and wraps his arms around me. “You’ll be perfect,” he whispers in my ear.

  “I’m going to be the youngest one by two decades! Four, if it weren’t for you! What the hell do I know? What are the rest of them going to think?”

  “That you’re young, ambitious, and hungry. Besides,” he spins me around. “What do you care what the others think? I am the only one who matters. And you’ve already inspired me.”

  “You’re not just saying that?” I whisper.

  “No,” he tells me firmly. “I love you, Lilly. But, that love has not swayed my decision to put you on the board. You are capable. That is the most important thing. You can see things objectively. You are not blinded by passion or emotion or sentiment. In a way,” he chuckles, “you can be as cold-hearted as I am.”

  “Oh, that makes me feel stellar,” I grumble. “I’m coming there, before all these successful businessmen with credentials and diplomas and MBA’s behind their names as… who? Some little girl with a broken arm?”

  I push away from Jeremy. “This is ridiculous. It’s not going to work.”

  His eyes narrow. “I’ve already made my decision.”

  “Yeah? Well unmake it,” I snap. I pace back and forth. “Jeremy, this is too much. I feel like a fraud.”

  “You are not.”

  “I can’t handle the responsibility of a billion-dollar company. I can’t, Jeremy! I’m not you.”

  “You’re more like me than you think,” he says slowly. “You just haven’t recognized it yet.”

  I shake my head. “You’re delusional.”

  “Or maybe, I’m realistic. Don’t think I don’t know the spot I’m placing you in. The pressure will be enormous. Yet I have every confidence that you will thrive.”

  “How can you be so sure?” I challenge.

  He gives a secret grin. “Your behavior with me, for one. Every possible challenge or threat I’ve thrown at you, you’ve overcome and come out stronger. This is hardly the scariest situation you’ve faced.”

  “It’s different when it’s just you,” I say. “Now there’s going to be an audience. For everything I do.”

  “Yes. There will.”

  “Don’t you think that’s just slightly intimidating?”

  “I think it can be outright terrifying…” He cranes his head to the side. “…for a person weaker than you.”

  “Jeremy, I don’t know where you got this skewed impression of me, but honestly, I am not ready for this!”

  “If I say you are, it means you are. This is my company. Remember? Its success is a vital part of who I am. Do you think I’d just throw that away?”

  “Who knows, with you?” I mumble.

  “What?”

  My head snaps up. “Nothing.”

  “Good. Now, Lilly,” Jeremy steps toward me. He takes my hand and makes me face him. With his other, he tilts my chin up. “Why don’t you tell me what’s really bothering you?” He lowers his voice. “I know it’s not the other board members. You’ve met them before. I saw you on the job you were given last. You’re intrepid. So it’s not them. It’s something else.” He meets me eyes. “Tell me, so I can help you.”

  I hesitate. “What if I…” I swallow. “What if I disappoint you?

  He shocks me by laughing. Even though it’s not his intention, it’s a hit to my ego.

  “You have all these grand expectations of me,” I mutter. “It’s your pressure that’s frightening, Jeremy. It’s like you’re trying to mold me into someone I’m not.”

  “Nonsense,” he tells me. “You are exactly who you are. That is why you can’t disappoint me, Lilly. My expectations are perfectly in line with your abilities.”

  Yeah, right, I think.

  “Now, are we done here?” he asks. He looks at his watch. “It’s half past. Simon is waiting.” He takes me by the arm and leads me out. “Let’s go.”

  The introduction to the Board goes exactly as I envisioned it.

  Horribly.

  Oh, they were all polite and complimentary. But I could feel every single pair of eyes on me. Watching. Weighing. Judging.

  Before I even walked into the room, their minds were already made up. This was a display of cronyism and nothing more.

  I saw the looks they shared with each other when Jeremy introduced me in my official position.

  By the time all of them leave the room, and I’m left alone with Jeremy in his office, I feel like I’ve been run over by a train. More than once.

  Jeremy, on the other hand, looks extremely satisfied.

  “That went well,” he tells me.

  I stare at him. “You’ve got to be fucking kidding me,”

  He chuckles. “I know these men, Lilly. I hand-picked them. We’ve worked together for years.”


  “Didn’t you tell me once that there were factions forming against you?”

  “Perhaps,” he muses. “But, perhaps not. Maybe rumors of such were started to influence IPO stock.”

  I screw up my face. “What?”

  “Stonehart Industries is a powerful company, Lilly. I am its face. The business world knows me. They know what to expect when I’m at the helm. They know that I’m a ruthless negotiator, an unwilling ally, and a stickler for secrets. They know that, so long as I lead this company, it will remain untouchable.

  “But news of discord, disorder, distrust? That gets them salivating. Maybe I’ll be replaced. Maybe I’ll be replaced by someone weaker. Maybe my successor will be more likely to divulge secrets, form alliances, share intellectual property.

  “Stonehart Industries has an incredible collection of IP. I protect it with my life. But if someone less savvy were to replace me? After the company moved into public hands? Intellectual property would be revealed. To whom? To the largest shareholder.”

  “You did it to start a bidding war?” I whisper.

  Jeremy smiles in the most insidious way imaginable. “Yes,” he says. “Yes. Exactly that.”

  “And it was all a lie? All the discord?”

  “Of course. The company is as secure as ever. I hold the board in the palm of my hand. These men—and women, now, thanks to you—have my utmost confidence. They would not be here if they did not.”

  Jeremy walks to the window and looks at the skyline. “This whole city,” he says. “I could control all of it, if I wished. If you want it, Lilly, just say the word. I’ll make it happen.”

  “Can you make the cameras and the paparazzi go away?”

  He looks over his shoulder at me and smiles. “Alas, that is one thing I cannot do. I can keep you safe, on my property, but not beyond that.” He shrugs. “Reporters are everywhere.”

  “There’s nothing else I want, then,” I tell him, “other than to make you proud.”

  “You already do, Lilly,” he says. “You already do.”

  The next week goes by in a blink. Then two. Then three.